No news yesterday but this morning we had a call to say that funding would almost certainly be made available next Thursday. We talked about homes. The ones we wanted are all full.

The County (East Sussex) only pays a certain amount and lots of homes cost considerably more than that amount. Dad is contributing a substantial amount. I still don't get how this works.

I don't really care anymore as long as we find a friendly, clean and cheerful place with people who are not all in a dreadful state. The home will have to be suitable for mental incapacity which cuts the number down enormously. Dad has his problems that are now too difficult to manage at home but, he is not incapacitated like many people we have seen.

We need a place with people who are similar to him. This is so difficult. You think you have achieved what you desperately wanted and then another lot of goal posts appear. Hopefully we will get a few possibilities on Monday and go and see them immediately. We have to keep in mind that we want him where there are some 'normal' mentally deficient. That's a contradiction in terms.

I have done nothing today but I feel absolutely drained.